being at the table

Being at the Table

I was awake way too early the morning after Christmas when I decided to low-key stalk research one of my favorite bloggers and writers for CRWN magazine Michelene J.

After hours of purging through her online work I stumbled across her email and this is how I brought myself to the table. I needed to have an outlet where I could really plant my feet and not just say that I’m here but that I am a part of the conversation; we are all a part of the conversation!

These past few years I’ve been discovering myself as a writer, as a woman, and as a creative. I’ve learned that as a woman we are not always invited to “the table” or the conversation and as a creative it’s super important to make yourself known. Β A month ago I had no idea how to do any of this. Β I tend to hold myself back a lot from doing the things I love in fear of being ridiculed which is probably I made a completely impulsive decision to spend almost $100 on a blog named after myself.

I needed to have an outlet where I could really plant my feet and not just say that I’m here but that I am a part of the conversation; we are all a part of the conversation!

I’ve always been able to convey my thoughts through words but every time I tried blogging I failed. I had ideas but no idea how to execute them.

Talking with Michelene helped me immensely because she is a blogger who also has no idea what she’s doing. Understanding this is what made it possible for me to really listen to her words of advice: stop thinking about great ideas and learn how to execute them. No matter how big or small, just do it.Β 

And so here we are; $100 later; at my spot a the table. And I truly have no idea if the things I share will resonate with you or even be relevant but I’ve totally already paid for this plate so expect me to be eating for at least a year.